"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years."

Terribelly hurt !
misearable sitaution !
Lost all hopes !!!!

"Dont wanna live anymore" were the only words...! cant handle surrondings... Heart seriously damaged..!! "How am i going to live again ?" was the question with only and only ans "I CANT" !! I knw i culd have done it if i myself wuld have tried and stop mourning on spilt milk..! But it was not tht easy..infact it was impossible b'cz the things i was oweing tht time were... a depressed mind...a dead sould ...and a burning heart !
Even though i had lots and lots of ppl around me tht time ..but i was lonely..needed a shoulder to cry upon..
Frnds were there..but i dint want symathy of them...family was there...but i dint want them to be in trouble..
Hope was there but i dint want it to enter my valley as i was totally gone tht time...alone in the dark room..crying like hell..!!
months passed but no change was observed atall!
Yes its true tht time is a good healer but for me..it was just passing so tht death i may greet death soon !
But then there is GOD !!!!!
No matter where the hell was the whole world whn i was going through such terrible situations..but God was observing !
He wanted me to feel the pain for sometime so tht i must grow-up and be strong...but whn he felt tht now this gal she get some relief...He helped me :)
My routine for months was same..no fun..no social life..no botherence in anything..just skool...home and r00m !!
While continuind the same routine..i was crying in my dark room..and thn ultimately saw a beautiful girl...!!
she was a complete personification of peace..carrying rays of hope in her eyes & wearing a gentle smile on her face ...:)
She was the one who directed me to life again...showed me all the beauties of life ..
and illustared the true meaning of living to me :)

OKay guys now u all must be thinking abt this angel :D
And i must say everybody reading this post is a very lucky person as someway or the other u guys must be knowing this angel..;)
and her name is ....DAWN !!!! :) Wht a perfect nick she has...Dawn...!

Today is her birthday...and i have no words ..no words to thnk this angel for everything she has done..as words are still just words...!
They cannot show the intensity..but dear i must.. say "YOU ARE THE REAL MEANING OF LOVE !"
Wishing u a very very happy birthday ! May this birthday of urs brings countless happiness in your life! :))
and now...a ghazal....for u ..and only u :))


Meri zameen par jo chandni hai vo sab teri hai
meray falak par jo dil kashi hai vi sab teri hai

jo titliyon k paraon par likhay hain khat meray hain
ye jugnoon mai jo roshni hai woh sab teri hai

jo shab pe chaaii khamoshiyaan hain vo sab meri hain
sahar mai jitni bhi nagmagi hai vo sab teri hai

jo teray manzar mai aur manzar hain sab meray hain
jo meray seenay mai shayari hai vo sab teri hia

jo teri muthi mai khushbooain hain vo sab meri hain
jo meri ankhon mai roshni hai woh sab teri hai

And Now its yummmy yummmy cakeyyy timee !!!!! ;)
And guyss...u all r invited . ..but pls help ur self ;) ! :D